The End of the Road!
1033 words by Karoline
WOW! I am at the end and i can see the light, just a little humor before business. I know that i sound like everyone else when i say that i can’t believe that i am writing/typing my last blog. I never thought that this would get here and finally i don’t have to think of things to say for my next blog. Well, i’m sorry to tell yah, but these blogs were a hell of a hassle. It isn’t that they were dumb or something, it was just they were so inconvenient. It was hard to stop studying and find the time to write about your project honestly. I didn’t like that they were easy to forget about, but they were. There were sometimes where i thought about what my grade would be if i did no blogs at all. Yeah i know it would have been horrible, but i thought about it. I didn’t know how hard my project was until i had to write about it. I actually thought that doing this project was going to be a piece of cake, but ha ha ha what an awakening i got. Doing this mad me think about myself and where i live in comparison to other people. I made me reflect on what kind of person i am and i don’t know if that was the intention but that is what happened. I learned that i care a great deal about the community around me, but i care more about people in other less fortunate countries. And while i do care i can be quite selfish and get lazy on my project. I don’t think that is something that is expected to be heard, but i like to be honest with myself.
My project didn’t go as good as i wanted it to go this semester. Partly because i didn’t have time to devote my all to it and parlty because i got lazy and discouraged a couple of times. I thought that people would be happy to help, but i spent more time convincing people that this was a problem and arguing my point than actually working on it and pushing it forward. I guess in a way convincing people that technological dependency is a problem is pushing my project forward, but it didn’t feel like it. Sometimes i felt like i was going to court and i hadn’t committed any crime. I do appreciate all the comments that i got from my peers in the class and from Dr. Homan. It gave me a chance to get grounded and focus because my class mates were brutally honest. I knew that everyone wasn’t going to agree on such a controversial topic, but i had no idea the amount of comments i would have got until my, MY PROJECT blog. So many people siad that i had a good idea, but there were so many good things that technology had done that they didn’t understand why i would pick a project like that. Once i addressed the questions presented by my project most people were okay with the issues that i brought forth. One person asked me if i hated technology and i realized then that i had some revisions to do, because i used technology myself it was just that i thought that instead of paying for ideas the world could save lives with that money. Therefore i started saying that in excess technology was a problem. It was hard to adjust to changing my mind over and over again, but i realized that a project doesn’t start out perfect. Although, i said that i don’t like the blogs i have to admit that the blogs kept me organized on my project and gave me a schedule of what i am doing on a weekly bases. I think that besides remembering to blog the hardest thing to do was to get people to listen to what my project was about and take critcism on a project that i have actually researched from people who can only defend their point of view by saying that technology is good. I don’t think that they are wrong for having an opinion, but it was hard to swallow all of that and still keep moving with the project. I don’t think that my project has changed to world on any level as of right now, but i know that eventually it will. I think of course that it has all of the potential in the world, but not enough people have heard about it. I have been questioned a lot on how i feel as a college student going against technology, when most classes are run by computer. It isn’t my fault that technology is the basis of some courses and i don’t think that on college campuses technology is a problem. I think that on a broader scale technology is becoming a problem more and more. In some ways the time that i will put into this project over the summer with my cousin and the man i have an interview with (hopefully), will help people to see that technology isn’t the best way for things even though it is the easier way. I am going to miss all of the people in the class because they truly made learning about the bible interesting. I mean the criteria of the class is interesting in itself but, the added personalities and laid back manner of the atmosphere made learning enjoyable. I didn’t think that the class would have been this hard though, nor did i think that it would have asked me to change so much of me. What i mean is that it forces you to be open minded because if i wasn’t i would have missed so much of the lessons that there were to be learned. And although i am open minded i still missed somethings. I liked the Bible mysteries and wondered some of the very things myself, but never had anyone to answer those complicated and sometimes juvenile questions about the Bible. This project will continue and i enjoted this class aswell as the people in it, farewell.